Follow Your heart


I feel like I’m getting closer to what I want to do with my life… I recently met a girl named Mayra.  She is a psychologist.  I have always been interested in the mind, how it works, why people get sick, etc.  (Okay, maybe not always, but for a long time.)  She has recently become a part of a program called Core Energetics.  It is a holistic healing modality that bridges body-psychotherapy and spirituality. (The definition is from the website below).

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What really interests me is the energy part of the program.  We are all made of energy.  It is interesting that the way we think can form not only our future, but prevent or cause our bodies to heal or to be harmed.  I am very aware of how our subconscious can alter our future.  If we don’t stay in tune with our subconscious/God/energy then we can lose sight of why we are here and our health can take a turn for the worse.  I want to know all about energy healing, being in tune/communicating with my subconscious/God.  I want to become an expert on this!  Not only do I want to help myself, but I feel like it would be completely gratifying to help others in this way as well.  Sometimes I wondered what I was doing here (Mexico)…but now I know.  I know it wasn’t to teach for a year.  It wasn’t to live on the ocean (ok, this might be a necessity in my life.) 🙂   It was to fully realize what I wanted to do.  I was never meant to be a teacher…I did pretty well, when I put everything into it, but it was never meant to be a lifelong career.  I am fine with that, because everything has led me to where I am right now.  You are probably wondering, well then what are you going to do next?  Very good question!  Ideally I would like to go back to school, but right now it’s looking a little tough for me to go back to school here…(Yes, there is a program here in the Riviera Maya, but not all the classes are in English.)   😦 I need to do some more researching on where and exactly what I would like to do.  I am getting closer and who knows, maybe I will change my mind again!   I might try something and find that it isn’t exactly what I thought and try something else, that is okay.  It is more than okay; it signifies that I am getting closer to what I want to do.  I’m so excited!!


When I Grow Up

So the question of the day/week/month/year for me is…what do I want to do when I grow up?  For some people, this is a relatively simple question.  For others, it just seems to magically fall into place and for many people, things just happen…I think I’ve fit into all the categories somewhere along the line, but now it’s different.  I don’t want to waste time doing something that is so-so or just pays the bills.  I don’t want a job that just seems safe and that is not challenging.  I also want a job that I want to learn more about it everyday, where it doesn’t seem like a “job.”  I’m not obsessed with earning big bucks, although that would be nice!  My main focus is for me to love my job and have a passion for whatever I’m doing.  Sometimes people get so caught up in doing what is easiest, doing something where they don’t have to move, or doing something where they don’t have to go back to school.  I don’t care about any of those things.  In fact, I’m willing to do something a difficult, move, and go back to school if I need to.  After all, the best things in life don’t come easy, right?

I have a few ideas in mind, but I’m not sure.  I feel like I’m getting closer, but it might take some time to figure it out.  I recently had a job interview and was offered a position, but I know that it isn’t what I want to do…I think I need to take the job in the mean time, until I’m sure on my plans.  Although, I feel like I could get really wrapped up in that job and lose focus and that concerns me.  This is a huge pivotal point in my life(as mentioned by a friend).  I feel like when you are taking a leap into the unknown, it might as well be a huge leap!  Yes, I know that people can over analyze things until they are blue in the face.  Yet this is an important thing to analyze!  I am trying really hard to listen to my heart and my gut…not my head.  My head isn’t very smart when it comes to these things!  haha  I feel like the important decisions in your life are best made by your heart and your gut.  It took me awhile to realize this, but I’m starting to understand it now.  This pic sums it up well…