I don’t want to get into the nitty-gritty details, but I’m done with my job and I need to move out of my place…This is kind of a major stress/stresses in anyone’s life. The job had to go, but the house is a long story. After all is said and done, there will be no tears over either thing(job or house). In fact, being here, I’ve made a major discovery! I don’t want to teach anymore! I know I kind of mentioned this in another post, but I feel so free! I actually had dreams before (for at least 2 nights) that I didn’t want to teach anymore. When I woke up in the morning, I felt revived and relieved! Now that I’m actually done, I am grateful, yet a bit scared. It is such a weird feeling, not knowing what I’m going to do next. I have this strange feeling that’s come over me recently…it’s a feeling of immense faith, that everything will be okay and I will find my way(whatever that may be).
It’s weird, but shouldn’t I be more worried? Should I stay in Cancun? Should I go back to school? If so, for what? Where will I live? I can’t go back to WI. Yes, I can, no I can’t. Where will I get a job? What will I do? Some of these things race through my mind, but then I remind myself that I might change my mind in another 10 years and that’s okay.
I am actually giving myself permission to take some time to figure things out before I jump to any major decisions. Life has been a roller coaster, but I am definitely enjoying the ride! I am constantly learning new things about others and myself…and it is the best is yet to be. I know that taking risks is scary, but it’s necessary! The following quote definitely sums it up: