What am I going to do now?

I don’t want to get into the nitty-gritty details, but I’m done with my job and I need to move out of my place…This is kind of a major stress/stresses in anyone’s life.  The job had to go, but the house is a long story.  After all is said and done, there will be no tears over either thing(job or house).  In fact, being here, I’ve made a major discovery!  I don’t want to teach anymore!  I know I kind of mentioned this in another post, but I feel so free!  I actually had dreams before (for at least 2 nights) that I didn’t want to teach anymore.  When I woke up in the morning, I felt revived and relieved!  Now that I’m actually done, I am grateful, yet a bit scared.  It is such a weird feeling, not knowing what I’m going to do next.  I have this strange feeling that’s come over me recently…it’s a feeling of immense faith, that everything will be okay and I will find my way(whatever that may be).

It’s weird, but shouldn’t I be more worried?  Should I stay in Cancun?  Should I go back to school?  If so, for what?  Where will I live?  I can’t go back to WI.  Yes, I can, no I can’t.  Where will I get a job?  What will I do?  Some of these things race through my mind, but then I remind myself that I might change my mind in another 10 years and that’s okay.

I am actually giving myself permission to take some time to figure things out before I jump to any major decisions.  Life has been a roller coaster, but I am definitely enjoying the ride!  I am constantly learning new things about others and myself…and it is the best is yet to be.  I know that taking risks is scary, but it’s necessary!  The following quote definitely sums it up:




5 responses

  1. You can’t fall back every time things get hard. If every time it gets difficult you just change your mind you will never succeed or move beyond. When going up a ladder you start from the bottom and it will get harder but if you mantain and keep working hard and moving forward thru problems you will eventually get to the top but if when it gets hard you quit it is as if you go back down. ladder and begining all over and if you keep doing that you will never succeed .

    • Hi Raymundo,
      Thank you for the comment…I guess I didn’t tell the whole story or tell it very well. I’ve been teaching for 10 years and my heart wasn’t in it anymore. It wasn’t because it was tough, it just wasn’t for me. There has been many times in my life when I didn’t listen to what I wanted or what was best for me. I just kept going on with life and never thought about, “Is this right? If not, why not?” This has been a proud moment for me because I finally “get it.” I was going to quit teaching last year, but decided I needed a change and maybe Cancun would change my mind…It didn’t. No matter what country I’m in, it wouldn’t matter. I just don’t want to be a teacher anymore. It was a little hard, because I think I’m a damn good teacher, but I need to follow my heart and not my head. I appreciate your comment, but this won’t be going down on the ladder, it will be going up. 🙂

  2. Hi. Did u see my comment in your Everyday post? I say, stay in Cancun. You love it, are already there and just arrived. Cancun can be a magical city, where different opportunities constantly present themselves. Connect with other expats and locals, tell everyone your looking for a job that’s not teaching. I have done things in Cancun I never dreamed of. I was a television announcer for a major hotel chain, a make up artist for a local singer’s video, an assistant to a night club owner , I travelled with a bungee jump operator to fairs throughout Mexico, was a stand in for American singer Tamia who was shooting a video in Playa Del Carmen, wrote pamphlets for clubs and hotels and a teacher! These were all new to me (except teaching). But give it a few weeks at least to network and see what happens. Visit this great blog: http://www.whatamistilldoingincancun.com
    You will see the writer’s ups and down from being a newcomer to a true Cancunense. Good luck!

    • Wow, Charlotte! That’s amazing!! You really have had quite the experience in Mexico! I will definitely take your advice. You give me hope that I can find something! Thanks! I will also check out the blog. I really appreciate your comment 🙂

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